Lost Essence

MEANT TO BE TOGETHER   CHAPTER-1 It was nearly after 5 years, i have felt a spark of hope, hope of meeting her again . Years which passed away so fast trying to keep up in the race of life;working our asses off for making our career. People say this time is just an investment for making life comfortable and well settled. Sometimes I wonder if working 9 to 5 routine  and then coming home tired to hell just to gobble up some food and trying to have a sound sleep could be called Life. Well this was my so called Life, life which i have accustomed to after getting separated from her.Actually, Separation is not the correct word. I was the one who broke off the relation.Looking behind,even I could not find a single reason for this stupid arrogant, self destructing step of mine. Even though just some days later I realized my folly but even then I was having enough ego to go back to her and admit my mistake.            ...

SORRY FOR STILL LOVING YOU I loved you like no one could I lived for you as you are my breath I saw the world by your eyes My everything included you My world was only you Starting from you and ending on you I cared for you like my child I respected you like the only one I came out of cocoon to embrace you I thought nothing bad will happen till i am with you My world was very small centered on you I devoted myself to you,only you  Now when you say, I have only been trouble to you that you were far better without me And you don't need my care or love anymore Ah,can you see how your words hurted me to the core I would have to suffer this pain now till the end who I have to blame It is me- who loved, who trusted   who eventually lost All i can say is,  Sorry For Loving You,  Sorry For still Loving You.