Lost Essence

CHAPTER-4 And I started telling her my love saga.  "I still could go on hours describing Maya after these 5 long years. Partly because there is so much to tell about her and partly because while talking about her,I feel close to her." I said.            MAYA; a girl as simple that even on a first meet, u will feel as u know her for years but along with such layers and maturity intricated deep in her which u will acknowledge only if u are real close to her and have enough patience.            Generally she was like water,pour in any vessel and it will take the shape. But that doesn't mean she didn't have her own identity. She was an independent girl having a strong identity;yet flexible enough to adjust in every kind of scene.       You know, she was just like a flavor which easily gets mixed in a dish but also has its presence defined with a superiority making the dish special ....

CHAPTER-3 As the plane rose in the air,I got lost in my dreamy world again. Yes, my little dreamy world where we never got seperated,where we are still together; fighting, cuddling,crying,cherishing every moment together.                         I was staring at my phone's wallpaper which was the picture of me and maya together. Suddenly,girl next to me said, "She's so pretty". I smiled in response.      "Hi,I am Kriti", she said.      "Myself Neel", I replied. I was not interested in any conversation, so I resumed back to myself. But she asked again, "who's She ?". She has such a earnest look in her eyes that i felt myself compelled to answer her.     "She is maya."    "Maya, who ? your girlfriend ?"     "No, my Life."    "You both look great together." ...

CHAPTER-2 After going through all the formalities, I was sitting at the airport lounge waiting for my flight.  I checked a few stores,then went into the bookstore. The bookstore was a feast to the eyes of booklovers. So many books neatly stacked in shelves categorised under different genres.                    Maya would have loved it.She literally had an apetite for books. She was a bookworm in typical sense and never minded being called that.She used to say, "Books are my first Love." And God, how jealous i used to feel by that and how i used to argue with her at this several times. But then,her cute smile always managed to overcome that.                                         ...

MEANT TO BE TOGETHER   CHAPTER-1 It was nearly after 5 years, i have felt a spark of hope, hope of meeting her again . Years which passed away so fast trying to keep up in the race of life;working our asses off for making our career. People say this time is just an investment for making life comfortable and well settled. Sometimes I wonder if working 9 to 5 routine  and then coming home tired to hell just to gobble up some food and trying to have a sound sleep could be called Life. Well this was my so called Life, life which i have accustomed to after getting separated from her.Actually, Separation is not the correct word. I was the one who broke off the relation.Looking behind,even I could not find a single reason for this stupid arrogant, self destructing step of mine. Even though just some days later I realized my folly but even then I was having enough ego to go back to her and admit my mistake.            ...

SORRY FOR STILL LOVING YOU I loved you like no one could I lived for you as you are my breath I saw the world by your eyes My everything included you My world was only you Starting from you and ending on you I cared for you like my child I respected you like the only one I came out of cocoon to embrace you I thought nothing bad will happen till i am with you My world was very small centered on you I devoted myself to you,only you  Now when you say, I have only been trouble to you that you were far better without me And you don't need my care or love anymore Ah,can you see how your words hurted me to the core I would have to suffer this pain now till the end who I have to blame It is me- who loved, who trusted   who eventually lost All i can say is,  Sorry For Loving You,  Sorry For still Loving You.